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Painful Love Azusa Mukami X Reader
4 min read
Every day he would watch her walk in and out of the library.
He would always go there just to watch her.
But lately she wouldn't smile like she use to
She usually woe her jacket sleeves rolled up but lately they weren't
He wanted to ask her if she was okay
But he'd always stop himself
This made him really sad.
Every night he cut himself
He would remember himself that he could never have her
Yet he'd return everyday just to catch a glimpse
He would have never guessed that the only reason (Y/N) would go in the library was to see him
But both of them stayed far away from each other afraid to hurt each other
Of course this couldn't last forever
One day (Y/N) came in walking on the verge of tears.
She had hoped to see Azusa there but he wasn't
That caused her great pain.Sh then went to the last row of shelves and fell on her knees.
She open the notebook she had and found her blade she slowly glades across her pale (S/C).
Azusa then walked into the library immediately a sweet smell hit his noise.
He followed it.
When he was close to where the smell came from he peeked to see (Y/N) looking at her wrist.
Her beautiful skin was dirty.
He then called her name "(Y/N)
Azusa is that you?"she said quickly pulling her sleeves down and standing up.
He then pushed her against the wall.
Azusa?"she asked confused
he then took of her jacket leaving her in her short sleeve button up shirt
He lifted her wrist and licked them till there was no blood on her wrist
She was so confused but strangely she didn't mind,
"You taste amazing"he whisper in her ear"But you don't deserve pain."
"Neither do you "she said back
"Y-y-yes I do "he said pulling away from her.
"No nobody does"she said more for herself then him
"I wouldn't mind if you hurt me (Y/N)"he said.
"I would never hurt you"she said.
"But I want you to hurt me (Y/N)"he said taking a knife out of his jacket handing it to you and put his wrist in front of you"Please hurt me ?
(Y/N) didn't know what to do.
"No"she said
"Please hurt me (Y/N)"he begged
"You then grabbed the knife and cut yourself
"No your suppose to hurt me "he said grabbing your wrist and licking it clean.
The taste of her blood was so sweet yet he controlled himself not to hurt her
He then put his wrist in front of her again and begged once more"(Y/N) hurt me please"
(Y/N) then responded saying "No,every time you cut yourself I also get hurt so I will cut my self every time you do"
He then tilted his head in confusion.
Why did it hurt her?
His eye then landed on her lips .
He immediately kissed her he also kissed back slowly letting go of the knife.
He then pulled away and said "If that's the way its gonna be then at least let me hurt you"
He slowly picked up the blade and cut her wrist and licked the blood and sucked on it
"Your turn"He said
He handed her the knife
She slowly glided the knife over his arm
He found the same pleasure and pain she found every time they repeated this.
This had been 10 months ago.They still continued this.But instead of cutting her he would sink his fangs into her and she would cut him.He had fallen in love with the taste of her blood and every other thing about her.They both knew that they couldn't continue this forever but for some reason they didn't care.They would tell themselves that it was ok. Love is painful anyway , right ?
He would always go there just to watch her.
But lately she wouldn't smile like she use to
She usually woe her jacket sleeves rolled up but lately they weren't
He wanted to ask her if she was okay
But he'd always stop himself
This made him really sad.
Every night he cut himself
He would remember himself that he could never have her
Yet he'd return everyday just to catch a glimpse
He would have never guessed that the only reason (Y/N) would go in the library was to see him
But both of them stayed far away from each other afraid to hurt each other
Of course this couldn't last forever
One day (Y/N) came in walking on the verge of tears.
She had hoped to see Azusa there but he wasn't
That caused her great pain.Sh then went to the last row of shelves and fell on her knees.
She open the notebook she had and found her blade she slowly glades across her pale (S/C).
Azusa then walked into the library immediately a sweet smell hit his noise.
He followed it.
When he was close to where the smell came from he peeked to see (Y/N) looking at her wrist.
Her beautiful skin was dirty.
He then called her name "(Y/N)
Azusa is that you?"she said quickly pulling her sleeves down and standing up.
He then pushed her against the wall.
Azusa?"she asked confused
he then took of her jacket leaving her in her short sleeve button up shirt
He lifted her wrist and licked them till there was no blood on her wrist
She was so confused but strangely she didn't mind,
"You taste amazing"he whisper in her ear"But you don't deserve pain."
"Neither do you "she said back
"Y-y-yes I do "he said pulling away from her.
"No nobody does"she said more for herself then him
"I wouldn't mind if you hurt me (Y/N)"he said.
"I would never hurt you"she said.
"But I want you to hurt me (Y/N)"he said taking a knife out of his jacket handing it to you and put his wrist in front of you"Please hurt me ?
(Y/N) didn't know what to do.
"No"she said
"Please hurt me (Y/N)"he begged
"You then grabbed the knife and cut yourself
"No your suppose to hurt me "he said grabbing your wrist and licking it clean.
The taste of her blood was so sweet yet he controlled himself not to hurt her
He then put his wrist in front of her again and begged once more"(Y/N) hurt me please"
(Y/N) then responded saying "No,every time you cut yourself I also get hurt so I will cut my self every time you do"
He then tilted his head in confusion.
Why did it hurt her?
His eye then landed on her lips .
He immediately kissed her he also kissed back slowly letting go of the knife.
He then pulled away and said "If that's the way its gonna be then at least let me hurt you"
He slowly picked up the blade and cut her wrist and licked the blood and sucked on it
"Your turn"He said
He handed her the knife
She slowly glided the knife over his arm
He found the same pleasure and pain she found every time they repeated this.
This had been 10 months ago.They still continued this.But instead of cutting her he would sink his fangs into her and she would cut him.He had fallen in love with the taste of her blood and every other thing about her.They both knew that they couldn't continue this forever but for some reason they didn't care.They would tell themselves that it was ok. Love is painful anyway , right ?
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Warning :May be triggering 
You were done.You were tired.Everything in your life never went right and everything you ever loved got snatched away.Today was the last straw.Not to long ago you had volunteered at an orphanage.You had got especially attached to a kid named Olly. Three months ago he had got admitted into the hospital he apparently had terminal cancer.You were devastated.They asked him what was his wish.It had been to be adopted by you.You decided to adopt him.The doctor had gave him a year of life.
You were determined to make it the best these months the best of his life.You had gone everywhere.Both of you were in your apparment when he suddenly got really sick.You immediately took him to the hospital.The docters told you that he had got worse that he had about 3 days left.You were finaly happy and life came and took it away from you.You had went back to his room sat next to him and smiled at him.His tired eyes looked at you and asked you if it was over.
"What?"you asked confused.
"I gonna leave this world right?"he said weakly smiling at you.
"I dont want to leave (Y/N)"He said trying to stand up but he was to weak.You walked over to him and said.
"I dont want you to leave either.".You hugged him and picked him up and set him on your lap until he fell asleep.You picked him up and took him home.When you got home you lay him down on your bed you lay beside him as he cuddled next to you.Your eye had soon got heavy and you let the darkness take you .In the morning you checked him .You found that he wasnt breathing.You just closed his eyes and cried.Now you were coming from the funeral.You felt even more sad when you noticed that you were the only person he had.You laid in your bed just hoping you wouldn't ever wake up.Eventually you fell asleep.Later you were woken up to a man on top of you that said.
"Go To Sleep".He held the knife as if your turn to scream or beg him not to.
"Would you please put me to sleep?It be the nicest thing anybody has ever done for me."you said as you looked straight into his eyes.Is this women crazy,shes suppose to cry and beg me not to kill her Jeff thought.
He eventually got off of you.When he did this you sat up and hugged your sheets and cried.
This intrigued him so he asked "What the hell is wrong with you?"
You told him everything for some strange reason his creepy smile comforted you.
"Wow you really are strong even stronger than me"he said when you finished talking.
"Thanks"you said between a sniffle.
Jeff for some reason couldn't bring him self to kill you.
He didnt even know your name he thought.
"Who are you any way?"you asked.
His eyes widened how could you read minds he thought.
"Sorry, it's okay if you don't want to tell me"you said "I'm (Y/N) by the way."
"No its okay i'm Jeff"he said
"Oh as in Jeff The Killer" you said.
"Yea you know my work?"he asked
"Yea ,umm Olly used to read about you"you said as you remembered Olly talking you about him.
"Oh ok well I got to go"he said.When he got up you noticed that he had been sitting closer than before.
"Thanks for listening if a little bit better"you said.
"Its okay"he said about to jump about your window.
Suddenly you saw him in front of you .He leaned and and kissed you.Your eyes widen in shock but eventually gave in.When you both pulled apart you smiled and blushed.He giggled and said"You look more beautiful when you smile".With that he left.You brushed your hand over your lips and smiled.That was the nicest thing anyone has ever done for you.He gave you a reason to live.
You were done.You were tired.Everything in your life never went right and everything you ever loved got snatched away.Today was the last straw.Not to long ago you had volunteered at an orphanage.You had got especially attached to a kid named Olly. Three months ago he had got admitted into the hospital he apparently had terminal cancer.You were devastated.They asked him what was his wish.It had been to be adopted by you.You decided to adopt him.The doctor had gave him a year of life.
You were determined to make it the best these months the best of his life.You had gone everywhere.Both of you were in your apparment when he suddenly got really sick.You immediately took him to the hospital.The docters told you that he had got worse that he had about 3 days left.You were finaly happy and life came and took it away from you.You had went back to his room sat next to him and smiled at him.His tired eyes looked at you and asked you if it was over.
"What?"you asked confused.
"I gonna leave this world right?"he said weakly smiling at you.
"I dont want to leave (Y/N)"He said trying to stand up but he was to weak.You walked over to him and said.
"I dont want you to leave either.".You hugged him and picked him up and set him on your lap until he fell asleep.You picked him up and took him home.When you got home you lay him down on your bed you lay beside him as he cuddled next to you.Your eye had soon got heavy and you let the darkness take you .In the morning you checked him .You found that he wasnt breathing.You just closed his eyes and cried.Now you were coming from the funeral.You felt even more sad when you noticed that you were the only person he had.You laid in your bed just hoping you wouldn't ever wake up.Eventually you fell asleep.Later you were woken up to a man on top of you that said.
"Go To Sleep".He held the knife as if your turn to scream or beg him not to.
"Would you please put me to sleep?It be the nicest thing anybody has ever done for me."you said as you looked straight into his eyes.Is this women crazy,shes suppose to cry and beg me not to kill her Jeff thought.
He eventually got off of you.When he did this you sat up and hugged your sheets and cried.
This intrigued him so he asked "What the hell is wrong with you?"
You told him everything for some strange reason his creepy smile comforted you.
"Wow you really are strong even stronger than me"he said when you finished talking.
"Thanks"you said between a sniffle.
Jeff for some reason couldn't bring him self to kill you.
He didnt even know your name he thought.
"Who are you any way?"you asked.
His eyes widened how could you read minds he thought.
"Sorry, it's okay if you don't want to tell me"you said "I'm (Y/N) by the way."
"No its okay i'm Jeff"he said
"Oh as in Jeff The Killer" you said.
"Yea you know my work?"he asked
"Yea ,umm Olly used to read about you"you said as you remembered Olly talking you about him.
"Oh ok well I got to go"he said.When he got up you noticed that he had been sitting closer than before.
"Thanks for listening if a little bit better"you said.
"Its okay"he said about to jump about your window.
Suddenly you saw him in front of you .He leaned and and kissed you.Your eyes widen in shock but eventually gave in.When you both pulled apart you smiled and blushed.He giggled and said"You look more beautiful when you smile".With that he left.You brushed your hand over your lips and smiled.That was the nicest thing anyone has ever done for you.He gave you a reason to live.
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Lip of an angel Levi x Reader x Eren
5 min read
It's kinda hard to talk right now .
Honey why are you crying ,is everything okay ?
I gotta whisper ,cause i cant be to loud
The rain started to fall harder.Your boyfriend Eren had fallen asleep .It was 12 pm at night and you couldn't sleep so not wanting to wake him up you walk out of the room and go to the living room.
Suddenly you hear you phone ring.You garb your phone and answer it. "Hello " You said.
"(Y/N)"you heard Levi's voice on the other side.His voice sounded like he had be crying.
"Levi what's wrong ,are you ok?"you whispered worried.
"(Y/N) I-I-I miss you a lot your kisses you touch your voice .I-I-I miss everything about you "Levi poured his heart out.
Why does he have to do this now ? You've just began to move on and here he come crashing in.
"For fucks sake(Y/N) please say something ."he begged.
I guess we never moved on
Its really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those word ,it makes me weak
"Levi "You barely muster out
"(Y/N) I'm sorry I let my pride get the best of me "he said"I just want you back .I want to be able to hold you in my arms and kiss you.".Those words coming from his mouth made you actually consider it But Eren you thought.
He has been with you through everything even before you and Levi broke up.
You started to think maybe you weren't over him like you thought you were.
"Bye Levi" You said and hanged up before he could answer
And then there are times ,that I want to say goodbye.
But you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
And yes I've dream't of you too
You sat on your couch just thinking about what just happened but slowly your eyes started getting heavier and heavier.
Suddenly you could see your first date.Levi had took you on his motorcycle to go hiking.Levi helped you get off of the motorcycle.You two started hiking up the trail with your hands in his.When you reached the top you saw that Levi had set up a picnic for both of you.'Aww you did just for me ?"you asked."Duh you idiot"he said"Do you like it?".You looked up and saw hie expressionless face but with a hint of hope in his eyes."No"you said ."To bad you brat "he said disappointed."I love it" you said giving him a peck on the cheeks.Then everything went black and you saw lamppost you saw two shapes that appeared to be dancing .When you got closer you saw it was Levi and you.Then it started to rain."We should get inside (Y/N)"Levi said."I don't want to"you said pouting like a child."(Y/n) I will carry you if I have to"he threaten you.You then kissed him and said "But you'll have to catch me first".Then you started running as he chased after you.
I guess we never moved on
You then woke up.A sudden wave of sadness pranged you chest.That's when you notice you had a cover wrapped around you."Hey (Y/N) "you heard Eren say .You giggled as you saw him with hair all messed up and yawning .He was only in sweat pants and seem funny to you how he could be cute and sexy at the same time."You like what you see (Y/N)"he says with a smirk.He then walks to the couch and and kisses you .You then wrap your arms around his neck.You then started to compare his kisses to Levi's. Eren's were sweat and gentle while Levi's more passionate and lustful.you then felt guilty of that.Both of you pulled away to breath."I'm gonna go make breakfast "he said."Ok"you say
Does she know your talking to me
Will start a fight
No i don't think he knows
You slowly walked toward the cafe you work in .When you got there you were greeted by Hanji and Mikasa and Sasha was there but she was to busy stuffing her face to greet you.You just waved back and got to work you.Then you heard the door open you looked to see who it was.When you saw Levi your eyes locked with his.He didn't look so good he seemed pale and there were bags under his eyes.You then just turned and cleaned the tables.Then Mikasa told you to take Levi's order but before you could complain she walked away.You slowly made your way to his table.Then you ask for his order."Black Tea and that's it "he said not looking up to you.You quickly gave Hanji the order and she immediately gave you his tea.You took his tea and placed it on the table.You then immediately turned around before you felt a hand on your wrist."(Y/N)"his voice came out shaky"Please sit down".Hesitantly you agree and sit down."(Y/N about yesterday I-I"."Its ok it was probably drunken mistake right?"you say."No not a single drop of alcohol was in my body I meant everything I said yesterday."he said looking staring straight into your eyes."Does Petra know your here ?"you ask."No she and I broke up" he answers.
Honey why are you calling me so late ?
You then checked your phone 48 missed calls which 23 of those were from Levi and 130 messages 70 of them were from Levi.You had told Eren that you wanted to take a break which surprisingly he said he felt the same way.That he felt awkward kissing his best friend.He also said that he we could still be friends.Ever since you lock your self in your apartment so far it had been a week.Suddenly you heard thunder and as if you were in a movie your tears started pouring.You were so confused .That when you did something you never thought you'd do you pick up your phone and called Levi."Who the fuck is waking me up in 1 am?"he asked"Hey Levi"You said sobbing."(Y/N)"his voice softened."I m-m-miss you "you confessed."Me too (Y/N) ,me too. "he said.
Honey why are you calling me so late ?
You then checked your phone 48 missed calls which 23 of those were from Levi and 130 messages 70 of them were from Levi.You had told Eren that you wanted to take a break which surprisingly he said he felt the same way.That he felt awkward kissing his best friend.He also said that he we could still be friends.Ever since you lock your self in your apartment so far it had been a week.Suddenly you heard thunder and as if you were in a movie your tears started pouring.You were so confused .That when you did something you never thought you'd do you pick up your phone and called Levi."Who the fuck is waking me up in 1 am?"he asked"Hey Levi"You said sobbing."(Y/N)"his voice softened."I m-m-miss you "you confessed."Me too (Y/N) ,me too. "he said.
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